Trust in Him

After two nights of absolutely no sleep and nothing but anxiety and being upset all day, I think I can now function. On my way to work this morning I realized I just need to "trust in him." I have been through so much worse in my lifetime. As a female, I admit, I do get a little crazy at times. Its almost as though I lose myself. The past few days, I was the crazy lady. Today, I'm my rational self again. The joys of my hormones thinking I can control every situation and its outcome. In all honesty, deep down I knew I couldn't control the situation and what had happened. So why worry about it? Why let it eat up three days of my life? Don't get me wrong, its still in the back of my mind. I still wonder if there is something else out there I can do to save the situation. Fact of the matter is, i'm not going to let the situation control me. I've never been one to be what some would call "tamed." I'm independent, strong, and definately my own person. Its time for me to move on. I am going to put all of my trust in him and know that he has bigger and better plans. At this time it wasn't meant to be.

On another note, last night reminded me of why I love the little things in life. We didn't do anything too exciting. Cooked dinner and carved a pumpkin together then spent our night watching tv. Sounds boring right? Maybe. But just to be calm and to have a night of nothing planned is so nice sometimes. I constantly feel like I am running 24/7. Perhaps its just my brain doing the running but either way its tiring! Here is our picture of our pumpkin from last night. (Kylie picked the design which was too hard for us novice pumpkin carvers.)