Why I feel like wanting to crawl in a hole 11/11/11

Could things get any worse? Yes I know they can but right now I feel like I have hit rock bottom. Chris always asks why I never set goals for myself. Well here is another prime example...

I applied for an EMT job about a month ago. When I called to followup about my application I was told I would be getting a call later that week. Well a few weeks went by and nothing. THEN... on Wednesday of this week, I got a call for an interview. I scheduled it for the next day. All that night I was a nervous wreck. Didn't sleep a minute. The hour drive down there I kept rehearsing the things I wanted to make sure I mentioned in my interview. The interview went so so... I felt like everything I said got shut down. I know I have no experience but I do know that I am a great candidate. Leaving the hospital I felt there was still hope. I felt for once maybe it will workout that I will get a job I love. Not even 20 minutes later and I'm getting a call. OMG... its good news right? NOPE! It was another hospital management person telling me that she has 2 CNA spots open and that per her discussion with my interviewer I would probaby be a better fit. Unfortunately I only took a CNA course and did it for three months. Never got my license. The place I worked at ruined any kind of want inside me to become a CNA. Towards the end of our conversation she said "We will go ahead and keep your application on file in case anything else comes up." Basically that to me was saying you are not going to get a job with our hospital. Ugh my heart sank. I hate that I get my hopes up. I hate the feeling of utter disappointment. Most of all, I hate the feeling that I am not good enough for a job because I have NO experience. Where will I ever get experience if I am not given the chance? I have had this problem so many times before. Medical Transcription hires experience over education, same for my Phlebotomy, and now my EMT. So there ya go, no need to set goals when you can't even get past the first stepping stone.

On a more positive note, today is 11/11/11 Veterans Day. THANK YOU to all the Veterans who have served or are serving!!!!

How important it is for us to recognize and celebrate our heroes and she-roes! ~Maya Angelou

Where is my make-up bag?

This might be very random but somehow I always manage to lose my make-up bag. Seriously between the last minute wake up alarm to going out the door all I do is scramble. Never do I have enough time to put on my make-up so usually I shove it in my purse. The past few days I have not been able to find it anywhere! Didn't fall out in my car, not in my office, its really making me mad. Guess this means my agenda for this evening is destroy and clean the whole house until I find it. I'm not a fan of the task but it will bug me until I find it. So much for putting it in a zebra design bag for easy finding!

Anyhow, on to other news this week. Nothing new really going on. Took Kylie trick or treating which is always a blast. She was all strategy this year. Serious business for a 7 year old! Too cute if you ask me =). The day after Halloween I went in to the doctor and go figure... another sinus infection. After the past few days of medication and being out of it I think I have finally made it through the worst. I have a cold sore on my lip to prove it. Silly things sneak up on me everytime I get a fever.

Well thats my week. Boring eh? Hope all of you are having a great week and a super fun weekend! GO GRIZ!